Planning

I'm looking at something, right in the middle of it, this thing called making plans.  I'm entering a new era for me and keep feeling to plan out what I can do with resources, health, food, maybe a travel-pass so I can move around and re-enter "society".  All good things, and yes I know that the basics, yes, very good to plan basics out. 

But I still see how this wanting to "make an outline", this desire to plan, wants to take over more than practicals, but some part of my mind says I should plan out things so well that my future is predictable.  And while I know I can't know the future, I'd very much like a few things, like improve my life and become self-sufficient again. 

The first thing, (I'm planning don't you see!) is that I'd like a certain level of success in getting my new website online and it's various things, like ability to take payments for ebooks I've written, and to provide forum space to discuss things I've blogged about, because I'd very much like to move away from being so insular, I really have only one really major mind person I share with.  And the direction I'm going I need friends as well as peers.  Anyway, what I meant to say is, that yes it's a strong priority of mine to have the website online, not just for the obvious income etc. but as a place to sample my current book work to the public and friends.  The work is about, well, that doesn't matter here, what's important is to have a nice place for my online work while I expand back out after years of being pretty much by myself.  And I think this website should be just the first step and once it's running that I then plan on moving on to other things.  I do not have an intention like I did before to dedicate myself entirely into this inner me-truth, but now instead get a life, and soon enough be able to resume traveling.  In some ways, return to where I left off those years ago.  I'm not sitting in "questions" like I was, and I feel fully really free and it's going to be far more fun to live that than it has been for me until lately.

So.  What am I saying?  Something like that I see that plans are for practical things, and opennes is for personal things.  Does that make sense?  I think so.  Though I think after my most current past, the better I plan on expansion, the better!  But who can't say that!?